🌈14/06/2023 01:17am

🌈how i long to be yearned for deeper than either of us could ever physically express...

🌈13/06/2023 22:16pm

🌈ahh, how i yearn to be loved in a mildly unsettling way...

🌈13/06/2023 13:12pm

🌈update update update !! i remembered !!

🌈exciting news: tomorrow is our last day of secondary school, ever ! we have one last exam to do, and then we never have to go there again !! yippee !! :D we're going to have a meal out to celebrate !

🌈it's been a long, difficult challenge sorting out schooling...without an autism diagnosis, getting help was hard ! but eventually we sorted things out the best we could, and the future is looking bright ! we're going to college !!

🌈the first course we're doing is a small one, only around 3 or 4 other people in the class ! but, that's a REALLY good thing ! it's a class that focuses on life skills, mainly, so it won't be too "hard" either ! (it might be a bit hard, since we do have a lot to learn...but i mean it won't be really stressful ! hopefully !) plus, being in such a small group pretty much forces us to socialise...good job i'm a people person ! i've realised lately that i think a lot of our mental health issues could be at least partially helped by socialising. we don't get out as much as we should...since we can't ! being disabled AND depressed is a really difficult combo to live with...but we'll get through it ! i have a feeling things are really going to get a lot better from here !

🌈so, we have a lot to look forward to ! it's exciting !

🌈13/06/2023 12:53pm

🌈heeeeeeeeeello everyone !!

🌈the pride event went great !! and the time abroad was nice too ! :] unfortunately some things have been going a little strange, but these things happen ! everything will be fine in no time !

🌈i, ah...actually forgot what i started writing this for !! i had something i wanted to write about...but it's slipped my mind !! i'll probably remember soon :] until then...i don't really have anything to write !! talk to you later !

🌈13/05/2023 23:40pm

🌈hiya everyone !! so, three things:

🌈1: i finally made a spacehey account !! yippee !! i decided to make my layout sesame street themed :] i think it looks fun ! you can find me here ! :]

🌈2: tomorrow is the pride event and flying abroad !! exciting, but also a little stressful. between you and me ?...WE HAVEN'T PACKED !! oh, we barely have anything ready ! especially not our computer...we're going to be in such a rush in the morning !! but oh well, there's not much we can do about it now :[

🌈3: we've sorted out personal independence payment, so now we get some income !! hooray !! the first things we're planning to buy now we have the funds are: cool spoke guards for our wheelchair, a cushion for our wheelchair, a cupholder for our wheelchair (our wheelchair needs a lot of things), vocal coaching sessions and some of our money is going towards our hormone replacement therapy !! we should be starting this year ! but even if it takes a little longer for hrt, vocal coaching can start really soon ! the kind of voice we're going for is a mix between walter from the muppets and big bird :] it's a pretty big departure from our "normal" voice !! (normal in quotes because our voice is unusually high !!)

🌈that's all for now !! we REALLY need to get going !!

🌈07/05/2023 20:42pm

🌈alright, i've added the mutual buttons area now !! :D it's a little basic, but i'll make it look more interesting soon ! for now, i'm pretty tired, so i'm going to relax ! :]

🌈07/05/2023 19:26pm

🌈well, i'm going to add the mutual buttons part soon !! i'm very tired but i think i'll try to force myself to do it today !! i'm not sure if i should make a new page or try to fit it on the main page...it'll look a little odd, but oh well !! nothing's perfect :] if you're one of my mutuals and you don't have a button, i'll just have your website name with a link ! i hope that's okay !

🌈so, any personal updates...well, we're going to a pride parade this weekend, and flying abroad on the same night !! doesn't that sound like an exciting day ! we'll need to order an aroace flag ! not that i'm sure where we'll put it...it's a little hard to know where to put things like that on our wheelchair ! we don't even have a cup holder anymore, since it broke...but we do have our under-chair bag ! anyway, maybe we'll tie it on our handles and it can hang over our bag ! or we could try to find an aroace blanket to go over our legs ? yet again, it could be warm ! we wouldn't want to overheat !! also, an aroace blanket could be expensive and might not arrive in time...so maybe not that ! the flag sounds like a good idea, i think :]

🌈i think that's all for now...i'll get to work on that button area ! it shouldn't be too hard, bye bye !! :]

🌈30/04/2023 22:50pm

🌈so, i haven't actually been updating like i should !! i'm sorry :[ i'll do something soon, pinkie promise ! i've been doing some things in the meantime, but not really too much. at least, i don't think compared to other people ? i think a lot of other people do a lot more in the day. i never understand how people have so much energy, haha !! but oh well, it's been okay ! i've drawn a little, but i don't really feel like posting any of it here for now. maybe later, though ! i think i'll end this here. bye bye !! :]

🌈18/04/2023 13:55pm

🌈aah !! i just remembered !! i need to add a section somewhere with links to websites/mutuals !! (they're called buttons, right ?) i'm a little too tired to do that right now, but i'm writing it here so i remember !! :]

🌈18/04/2023 13:47pm

🌈hi everyone !!! sorry for not updating for so long ! i've either been taking a break or just haven't got around to updating here !! so, i don't really have any new ideas for this website yet. i'm thinking about it !! but no ideas have clicked yet ! if i decide on something new i'm gonna add, i'll write about it here, though ! :] that's all for now !!

🌈01/04/2023 02:49am

🌈i hate neocities (APRIL FOOLS JOKE !!!)

🌈31/03/2023 00:37am

🌈do you ever see something on the internet that makes you think "that is the WORST idea i have ever seen in my entire life. but you're having so much fun !!! i'm so proud of you !!!" ?

🌈30/03/2023 01:42am

🌈does anyone else have the problem where you feel like searching for art of your characters, but then you remember they only exist inside your head ? i like frankie and raisin so much they don't feel like my characters at all !!! they feel like someone else made them, i don't usually care this much about my own characters ! i do like all my characters, sure, but these two really mean a lot to me. they feel special ! even if they aren't really special out of all the characters in the world, they feel special to me ! i just wish i had the motivation to draw them more. we're so tired all the time ! but i'll try to draw them tomorrow ! (actually, it's today now !! hahaha !!) i have this one new drawing idea i can't stop thinking about...frankie is playing the piano and raisin is watching him. it's a lot cooler than it sounds !! i also wanna try and go for a watercolor look, even if i do it digitally...lighter, softer colors and a fading background ! i'm not sure what you'd call that but that's what i wanna do ! i also wanna draw them in the woods, reading and when they first meet ! and maybe some joke drawings too !! i really like those cursed images, they're so fun !! anyway, we should be getting to bed ! we still have club tomorrow ! nighty night !!! :]

🌈30/03/2023 01:25am

🌈hmm...i'm in a bit of a pickle. you see, i wanna share my characters with people ! i want people to see my fun characters and smile ! but also, i feel a little protective over them, and i also don't have the motivation to make content of them...so i'm just sitting here, thinking about them lovingly. frankie and raisin are my favorites ! if i had the motivation i'd draw so many pictures of them !! maybe i'll force myself to tomorrow since we don't have therapy. i need to work on raisin's color palate anyway...their colors look a little ugly right now ! frankie looks fine though. i love the way frankie looks !! he's really simple but he's my favorite favorite ! i've been planning for their story to be a book...but i'm not sure. maybe i'll just draw them until we're old enough to try and be a director !! my biggest dream is for their story to be an animated movie ! i'd love for it to be stop motion the most, but my second choice would be frame-by-frame 2d !

🌈29/03/2023 23:14pm

🌈you, a simpleton, use a professional microphone and audio recorder to make content. i, a sophisticated intellectual, use a poor quality gaming headset microphone and the default windows voice recorder because i don't actually know if there's any professional audio recording softwares and i have no money. i have no idea how to end this joke !!!

🌈29/03/2023 19:55pm

🌈i think i'll practice some voice acting with these two characters of mine !! i'm not really any good at voice acting, but it's fun !! and probably a great way to connect to the characters more ! i probably won't post the clips, but maybe if i like them i will ! maybe i'll even make little drawings to go with some of them !! :]

🌈28/03/2023 15:33pm

🌈our dog is like a cinnamon roll !! except she's furry and alive, which are two things i usually hope cinnamon rolls aren't...

🌈28/03/2023 02:06am

🌈(cuts up my meatballs into smaller pieces with a knife and fork before i eat them) soooo, how was the wiggles concert ?

🌈27/03/2023 22:29pm

🌈there's not enough silly and funny in this body to match my goofy energy...what you're seeing is only a fraction of my power...

🌈27/03/2023 21:49pm

🌈we just got back home !! i'm not sure if i'll actually make any changes here today, we're really tired ! but maybe i will ! who knows !! i'll probably just make some blog posts before bedtime, though ! :]

🌈27/03/2023 11:22am

🌈hiya, everyone !! we're actually at our grandparents' house today ! hooray !! i'm editing this on our phone, so i have no idea what i'm doing ! i'm not used to the phone layout !! anyway, that means there'll be no site updates until we get home ! which is okay ! but maybe there'll be some updates tonight !! will there be many posts here on the blog today...? probably not ! this is hard and hurts our hand ! see you guys later !!

🌈27/03/2023 09:57am

🌈today we're running on roughly 3 hours of sleep, pure willpower and the desire to get things out of the way !!!

🌈27/03/2023 09:38am

🌈just so you guys know, i'm gonna add a section with links to websites soon !! i just need to figure out where to put it ! :D

🌈27/03/2023 09:05am

🌈good morning, everyone !! we have school today !! not fun :[ but that's okay ! we didn't get much sleep last night, though ! we didnt fall asleep until around 03:30, and we woke up at 06:45...so we're pretty tired ! but i'm sure today'll still be a great day !! :]

🌈27/03/2023 01:14am

🌈whew !! i just finished some things on here ! now it's time to go to bed !! nighty night, stranger reading this !! :]

🌈27/03/2023 00:41am

🌈when we were younger, we really loved the count of monte cristo ! specifically the musical and the 2002 movie !! the songs in the musical are so catchy and the story is interesting too !! we haven't seen it in a while, though...i don't remember too much !! but a story told, hell to your doorstep and i know those eyes/this man is dead are still really good songs !! :D

🌈26/03/2023 23:57pm

🌈i was just feeling annoyed about having to open youtube to play midnight, the stars and you, but i just remembered i have it on my website here !! silly me !!

🌈26/03/2023 23:48pm

🌈i just make this blinkie for myself !! it's really simple, but i like it !! :D

🌈26/03/2023 22:02pm

🌈we just opened a bottle of lemonade and it was really really loud !!! just wanted to share :]

🌈26/03/2023 21:47pm

🌈our brain goes back and fourth rapidly between coming up with pretty good sentences and being so incoherent we might as well have aphabet soup up there instead !!!

🌈26/03/2023 17:29pm

🌈me after i tell myself to stop being lame: i did it ! i am no longer mentally ill ! you may undiagnose me now !!

🌈26/03/2023 16:56pm

🌈another update ! i added alt text !! i've never done any before, so please tell me if i did bad !! i want to try and make this more acessible !:]

🌈26/03/2023 15:57pm

🌈update !! i joined a webring !! yipee !!! :]

🌈26/03/2023 15:53pm

🌈i should join a webring !! but also i'm a little afraid !! but also i really want to join one !! aaaghhh !!!

🌈26/03/2023 15:42pm

🌈what’s rupaul drag race about ? whenever i hear it i imagine they’re all in gokarts…is that what happens ?

🌈26/03/2023 14:07pm

🌈i say what i want, i do what i want, i do a backflip in my brain and i still somehow fall over and i just kinda lie there

🌈26/03/2023 13:42pm

🌈 gooooooood afternoon folks !!! i never usually say folks, i just thought it'd sound cool to say that ! and it does !! and if you didn't guess, yea...we woke up in the afternoon again ! at least it isn't like it was eariler this week ! we woke up at 5pm after a really long, vivid dream ! we still remember most of it too !

🌈speaking of dreams, we still remember a little of last night's dream ! we were at the oscars, but it was outside and most of the actors were children. one of them was me, but it wasn't me, and also we were a news reporter recording everything ? there were also people dressed up as the panda from just dance, godzilla, and buddy from dinosaur train. after the oscars ended, we all went inside. we weren't a news reporter anymore, we were a boy in a group of quadruplets. our mom was taking us to the aquarium, i think. then it was foreshadowed we were going to become the teenage mutant ninja turtles. then we were on a spaceship, but we were different people again. i'm not sure who we were, but dipper pines was there and he was leonardo. we we told him we liked this pony that was on this futuristic projection tv. he said he designed it and to promise we actually liked it. we were quiet because we were confused. suddenly ron from ron's gone wrong was there and he was zooming around. dipper thought maybe the way to fix him was to put him in the show, which was now a portal to oregon. we stopped him and said "don't you remember what happened last time ?" because apparently we were in a time loop. he said he did but he wasn't sure what else to do. we said ron just needed enrichment and we just needed to get him a playground, so we tried to get one on the screen. suddenly we were in a different room. we were a little girl and we were surrounded by...science stuffs. there was this weird thing that was radiating energy that was also a liquid but was also wasn't. something went wrong and we could feel it burning. a scientist came in and said we needed to run and grabbed everything. we didn't want to but then we saw these other scientists and knew we were going to get in trouble, so we ran.

🌈some other things happened too, but we don't remember enough ! there was something about a pool, a fanclub, an online forum...that's it !

🌈i hope you liked listening to our dream ! or if you didn't read it, that's okay too !! anyway, i'm gonna look for ways to personalise this website even more ! :]

🌈26/03/2023 13:28pm

🌈"ah, no, listen - it's not that your argument is WRONG, it's just that i don't care ! (noclips through a wall)"

🌈26/03/2023 02:40am

🌈 EXCITING UPDATE !!! i added a chatbox to the main page !! yipee !! now people can say things there ! :D i thought it'd be hard to get a chatbox, but apparently it's super easy ! a lot of this is easier than i thought, actually !! it's pretty fun !!

🌈26/03/2023 02:25am

🌈 hmm...be crime, do gay...

🌈25/03/2023 22:56pm

🌈 midnight, the stars and you is such a wonderful song !!! i can't stop listening to it !!! 🎵i'll be remembering you, whatever else i do~🎵

🌈25/03/2023 22:14pm

🌈 sometimes i think about my identity and i go do i really need to say anything ? does it really matter what flavor of skittle i am ? what color of the rainbow i slide down ? i am just sitting here existing with big thoughts. maybe it doesn't matter !! :]

🌈25/03/2023 21:45pm

🌈if you don't play garfield kart on the 3ds, are you even really a gamer ? (just kidding of course haha !! OR AM I ????)

🌈25/03/2023 21:07pm

🌈i think about this image a lot...how do you even come up with an insult like that ??

🌈25/03/2023 19:23pm

🌈sooooooo, i think i might make a spacehey account !! but also, i dunno ? am i gonna use it even ?? i wanna have a way to talk to people away from big social media, but i dunno ! it seems like fun though so maybe i will !!! maybe i won't !!! who knows !!!

🌈25/03/2023 17:56pm

🌈yipee !! a new blog post !! what's the news ? i updated the website !! now there's a fancy animated banner (oooo !!) and buttons !! hooray !! :] i don't really have anything else to say right now, still ? today has just been working on this website !! which is okay, it's fun ! :D

🌈25/03/2023 14:00pm

🌈i see a character who's going/has gone through traumatic events like me and i go same here !!! do you...wanna hold hands ??? maybe kiss eachother on the cheek even ??? and look away bashfully while i twirl my hair...

🌈25/03/2023 13:11pm

🌈hiya everyone !!! good morning !! or, well, good afternoon !! haha !! we just woke up is what i mean !! :] i think we're just gonna work on this website today !! we don't have anything to do, plus we're still recovering from this really long cold :[ it sucks !! but it's okay ! a little cold really isn't that much ! actually, we never really do anything anyways !! we're always too tired to leave the house alone. we spend so much time in here sometimes it feel like there's nothing outside !! but obviously there is. no point getting ourselves into another scary thought spiral !! the door opens just fine.

🌈soooooooo, i need to make a header...and some buttons !! and change some colors around ! but mainly the header and the buttons. i dunno what i really wanna do for the header ?? i have some ideas for the buttons !! they're gonna have 3d text and little pictures to make them look fun !! :D i dunno what the pictures are gonna be, though !! maybe simple ones like suns and clouds ? or maybe some characters of mine ?? the characters sound a little hard to draw, though !! i have some simple ones but i wanna save them for a project, so...maybe the symbols !! besides, if i decide i wanna change them after i'm done i can !! this is my website !!

🌈welp, that's it for now !! if anyone's reading this (i only just realised there probably isn't), i hope you have a great day !! :]

🌈25/03/2023 03:57am

🌈NEW BLOG POST ALERT !!! that was quick !! the news is that our mam told us to go to bed because it's almost 4am !! which makes sense !! we have a really bad sleep schedule...okay, we're gonna go to bed now !!! nighty night !!! <3

🌈25/03/2023 03:51am

🌈my first ever blog post ! exciting !!! what do i wanna write about ? i dunno ! i have no ideas !!! people usually write about random stuff, right ?? just thoughts and funny things ?? i can do that !!! not right now though !! i don't have any funny things to share right now ! :[ i guess i'll end this here !